I just wrote that you’ll never have that moment where everything suddenly makes sense.
an epiphany if you will.
And it’s okay, because it’s the moments of pure living that really matter.
And as true as I think that is, God i wish it were real.
I wish I could have that moment where everything clicks and I start being awesome and I get the girl and I ride off in the sunset ready to take on the world.
But it’s not like that.
It’s a struggle.
But I guess it would be too easy if things were like that. I think we find out who we are through the struggles.
And you’re lucky if you have people there to drag you through them.
But as much as I want that Hollywood moment where my life begins, I can’t wait for that.
I just got to make things happen without divine intervention.
and when you’re like me and have no self confidence, that’s a bit daunting.
I was always waiting for that epiphany. Because I didn’t believe in myself.
and I still don’t really.
But i can’t wait for fate to kick in to move on.
So it seems that I have work to do.
